Distress

Last Sunday our little lad fell in from what began as a cold, or so we initially thought. After some insistence the doctors agreed that he should be taken down to the hospital to be checked out properly. From that point he was immediately admitted to the children’s ward and began his stay. Hopefully he will be out tomorrow or at the latest Saturday.

The photo above was actually one of the better ones we took on Monday to send to our family who could not be with us here in Colchester during this time. For me however it was one of those periods in my life that proves a couple of things. Firstly how fragile life is (especially when you are only three months old), and secondly how much your kids actually mean to you. You sort of cruise through family life not really appreciating how much your kids mean to you until something happens that shows that they could possibly be taken out of your life. I know that sounds possibly over the top, but I guess it is not just thinking that they can be taken away from you, but also how much you end up worrying about their lives.

To see your child in a hospital bed with tubes coming out of them and clearly looking so unwell just breaks your heart. Especially with the fact that there is actually nothing you can do to make it better for them. You do feel helpless, and the only consolation is that they are being looked after by people who know what they are doing. The fact that our son was in hospital was both a comfort and a distressing feeling. It was clearly the best place for him during this time, but that doesn’t change the fact that I didn’t want him to be in Hospital.

I love my kids and miss my wife, (Kate has been staying in Hospital with Heath) but know that we will go back to normal after this moment in time. However I also know that my life has changed again with a deeper concern for my kids. I hope the NHS reforms don’t decide, as is being discussed, that smaller A&E Hospitals should be closed in favour of larger regional specialist centres, because having the other half of my family only a couple of miles away made this whole incident almost bearable.

Anyhow I need to do some ironing.

 

Travis